Note to self.

Today I woke up feeling good - I had the strength and mental stamina to take care of what I needed.
As I dropped off Diego to school, I played some piano tracks from Uematsu Nobuo (which made Diego totally knock out in the car, leaving his mouth gaping during the whole car ride to La Canada High School), and thought about these few moments when God gives me the strength to be so peaceful, even in the midst of all troubles and severe imperfections pertaining to one's life. I prayed:

"God I want to thank you first and foremost for this peace. When I do have the strength and feel that I can take care of myself, please don't let me forget to thank you. Days like these, I want to take time from my day to seek Your Heart. *Thinks of King David* Whether it be scripture reading, listening to an online sermon (www.desiringgod.org, www.resolved.org), praying, meditating, etc. I know I won't be able to do this everyday because I'm human, but in these few precious moments... please use it." --> something like that.

I decided that I felt like this today because I woke up content - content loving myself, even though I know myself best.. my innermost strengths (few), and flaws (many).

The world will go on, I said. Just like how H.O.N. games will always be won, and lost by mature/immature adults and children alike, people and the world will move on. God's grace will abound. He will save people from the pits. People will do what they must to survive in his/her respective schools and jobs. So it's OK that I am, at many times, weak. It's OK that I can't make everyone happy. If I realize that at many times I need all the energy I have to help myself, it's OK. God doesn't NEED me to do anything. People shouldn't depend on me. These thoughts shouldn't evoke feelings of fear, sadness, or even frustration. Peace is what came to my mind. That things AROUND me will be just fine, that I can be CONTENT loving myself (not to the point of arrogance or pride), and see my day not as some epic quest to conquer, nor a gigantic heavyweight task, but rather take it as what it is.... a day :)

Let's get some work done.

-DK over and out.

**HON is a computer game :P 'nuff said.